Gods in Chrysalis

"Whenever you go out of the doors, draw the chin in, carry the crown of the head high and fill the lungs to the utmost; drink in the sunshine; greet your friends with a smile and put soul into every handclasp.

Do not fear being misunderstood and do not waste a minute thinking about your enemies. Try to fix firmly in your mind that you would like to do and then without veering off direction, you will move straight to the goal.

Keep your mind on the great and splendid things you would like to do and then as the days go gliding by, you will find yourself unconsciously seizing upon the opportunity that are required for the fulfillement of your desire, just as the coral insect takes from the running tide the element it needs. Pciture in your mind the able, earnest, useful person you desire to be, and the thought you hold is hourly transforming you into that particular individual.

Thought is supreme.

Preserve a right mental attitude - the attitude of courage, frankness and good cheer. To think rightly is to create. All things come through desire and every sincere prayer is answered.
We become like that on which our hearts are fixed.

Carry your chin in and the crown of your head high. We are gods in Chrysalis."

- Elbert Hubbard.

Coming into a Dream

Let me tell you about a dream that I had. Someone put me back in school and there was all these things I had to do. Student things. Sports. Studies. Rules. Activities. And I dreaded every moment.

They had odd uniforms, odd sports, odd teachers and odder kids. How awful. At the end of the dream, I was running uphill and I thought, 'I could make this a pretty pathetic experience or I could make the best of the bad. And I fell into everything I did with deep enthusiasm and passion.

When I woke up, I felt that this was Now. And no different from my dream.

That even though I don't have everything I'd like to have, although everything isn't going the way I want it to, I still have a choice - to make it as dreadful as I believe it to be or the best.
Have fun while you can. Play. Don't drown in pity and don't take things or life so seriously. Life and Death is all a game that people fall in and out of. We are all players so PLAY.

'Live' is not just a word for 'breathe' or 'eat' or 'survive'. Whatever our purpose is in Life, we ought to live it with Full Intention. Play Hard. Live Hard. Love Hard (love in this context is define to be above physical lust; it is love of no condition. No boundaries).

Run with purpose, walk with purpose, drink coffee with purpose, laugh with purpose and you can never fail in Life.

Attitude Gratitude

The Gratitude Journal

In her book ‘Simple Abundance’, Sarah Ban Breathnach describes how we can enrich our life by creating a daily gratitude journal.

‘Each night before I go to bed, I write down five things that I can be grateful about that day. Real life isn’t always going to be perfect or go our way, but the recurring acknowledgment of what is working in our lives can help us not only to survive but surmount our difficulties.

Simplicity, order, harmony, beauty and joy – all other principles that can transform your life will not blossom and flourish without gratitude…You simply will not be the same person two months from now after consciously giving thanks each day for the abundance that exists in your life. And you will have set in motion an ancient spiritual law: the more you have and are grateful for, the more will be given you.

As you focus on the abundance rather than on the lack in your life, you will be designing a wonderful new blueprint for the future. This sense of fulfillment is gratitude at work. This sense of fulfillment is gratitude at work, transforming your dreams into reality. Begin this day to explore and integrate this beautiful, life-affirming principle into your life, and the miracle you have been seeking will unfold to your wonder and amazement’.

I Already Have All That I Seek

We're an answer-driven society. Everything we do we need answers.
We climb ladders. We climb mountains.
We go on journeys. We go for quests.
We chase. We search.
We look in the soul. We look at the soul. We look beyond the soul.

Have we found what we've been searching for?

What is it that we're looking for?

Do we even know?

How do we know the Hows, when we don't know the Whats?

We're lost, confused and disoriented.

But we're never hope-less.

If there's one thing about the humankind, we never lose hope. We may lose it as individuals, but as a collective, we care too much to do that. Have you ever given up hope on your family, friends or partners? That's what I mean. We're resilient in that sense. Hard to get rid of. Almost pest-like. Like cockroaches :D

So how do we know what we're looking for?

Look in the Whys.

This cycle of insanity is a fruitless one. As mentioned before, we seem to delight in this 'carrot & donkey' sequence of life. As though happiness is at the end of the 'string ofs...'.
The string of... graduation, work, wealth, sex, marriage, children, retirement... etc.

Myself? I'm like a dog chasing it's tail.

Came a day. One miserable day. A day I intent it to be miserable with my miserable thoughts. So miserable, I was miserable.

I was miserable because.
I was miserable because I felt I had nothing materially substantial to show for my 26 years of existence.
I was miserable because while the rest of the world had BMWs and LVs I had nothing
I was miserable because ten years ago, I had envisioned myself in love and in style.

So I was running a list of things in my mind: things I would do if; things I would feel when; things I would say at...etc.

In other words, I was saying that I can only be happy with myself if I'm thin, rich and beautiful.

Only later. Never here. Never now. Never in the moment.

Then I read. Even though I read it before. A singular line that meant everything and can mean also absolutely nothing. So powerful yet so power-less. In that moment, all things that clouded me depart.

"I have all that I seek."

Which simply means. There is nothing to achieve because I have it. There are no answers to seek. Because there are no questions. Everything that is to be provided for is already provided.

I have everything I need in this life.

Something else I read somewhere which I will loosely quote: "As long as you have shoulders, you will have clothes. As long as you have a mouth, you will have food."
And I will also like to add: "As long as you have limbs, you will have work. As long as you have ears, you have music. And as long as you have sight, you will have beauty."

In other words, be grateful for.

There is much to give thanks.

Talking Heads

Yes, you probably got this this morning. You probably read it. Thought about it. Thought little about it. Thought nothing about it. But I want you to re-think. So I cannot emphasize any more how important this is for you. I don't gain anything from doing this. Maybe a few nutters comments but I think all is well-received.

Dear friends,
Today is an email day for me.
It is a day simply devoted to writing emails to my family and to my friends.
I have not done this for a long time.
In fact... the last time I did that, it was in 1999. And this is just about
writing emails. Not forwarding emails. Or replying emails. Just writing them
from my heart.

But what calls to this devotion isn't quite as bizarre. What prompted all
this is after going to the Landmark Forum. Ahhhhh.... now you understand.
But the Landmark Forum isn't responsible for this. I am.

I haven't written a hearty-from-the-heart email for so long because I've
forgotten who I am and what I enjoy doing most. I grew up and I became too
old to write emails.

We've all been through the 'I'm-too-old-for-this-now'. And in fact, we're
living it. All of a sudden, we feel to old to play. Too old to tickle. Too
old to dance in the rain. Too old to look at the clouds and imagine pink
elephants. All of a sudden, we were told, and we told ourselves, to grow up.
And that's the day we went to sleep in our waking moments.

I've been asleep for a long time. And it usually starts the minute I get up
from bed.
When I wake up I want to go back to sleep.
When I'm brushing my teeth, I'm thinking of breakfast.
When I'm having breakfast, I'm thinking about work.
When I'm at work, I'm thinking about home.
When I'm at home, I'm thinking about what to cook.
When I'm cooking, I think about what's on TV.
When I'm watching TV, I think how nice it is to be them.
And then I brush my teeth, change in to my jammies, go to sleep and think
I've done a fat lot for myself.

We think we're in charge of our lives but we're not. We think we make our
decisions but we don't. We think we're free but we're prisoners.

So what are we?

What are we doing?

What do we want in life?

The answer: We are really victims of our thoughts. Thoughts? What thoughts?
That one. The one that's asking, 'What thoughts?'
The 'voices in our head' tells us what we can do and what we cannot. How
many of us here have had conflicting thoughts. For example, when my nephew
tells me he loves me, a voice in my head says, 'no you don't'. Simply
because I 'think' he's too young to know what love is. Pfft.... Or when my
boss said to me, 'We missed you' (while I was on holiday) ... the voice in
my head said, "Yea right. Liar."

People, that voice is not real. It is not us. And it is not who we are.

The same voice also tells us when to be happy. It will tell us that we are
only happy when we're in school. And when we're in school, we're not happy.
Then it tells us, look at your parents, look how happy they are as adults.
So we say, 'When I grow up, I'll be happy'. Then we grow up, and we're still
not happy. Then we say, 'I know... I'll get a high-paying job, get money,
buy some really cool stuff THEN I'll be happy." Still not happy. 'Get a
girlfriend/ boyfriend THEN I'll be happy'. Stillll not happy. 'Get married
then I'll be happy'. Nope. 'How about some kids? I'll be happy then'. Uh-uh.
'When I retire, get the kids out the house, go on holiday... I'll definitely
be happy.'

You know what? You get a phone call from your doctor. He says he found a
lump in your breast/ balls. And you only have 3 months to live.

And you live the rest of that 3 months thinking, I wish I was happy when I
had the chance to be happy i.e. in school, at work, being single, being
un-single, without kids and with kids.

Life is indeed bull shit.

But it is only bull shit if we think it's bull shit and all we always will
have will be bull shit.

People, we will never be happy later. We will never be happy when we're
thin, rich and beautiful.

We all have a choice to happy now. To take responsibility of our thoughts,
our emotions and our actions. If we don't believe we can be happy or loved,
we will never feel happy or loved and we will never allow happiness or love
to come into our lives.

That's why I want you to do the Landmark Forum. Wherever you are.

I'm not an ambassador of the forum. I'm not working for them. And no, I
don't get money for writing this email. Not even a voucher.

I'm writing this email because I know you can be greater than you think you
are.

And the only reason why you think you're not good enough is because you
think so.
But I don't.

I'm not asking you to get fixed or changed. You're not a car. That's nothing
about you that needs to be fixed. Because, there's nothing wrong with you in
the first place.
The word here is not about fixing or changing. It's about transformation.
Being aware of a greater possibility.

But I know you can create a difference in your life. A happy difference. I
know you can do so much more. You are more than what you imagine.

And I know the only way to reach our highest potential is to understand our
selves. We don't know ourselves enough. It's the voice in the head that
makes us think we do. We DON'T. If you can see how much more you can BE in
life. If you can only see how much more you can DO in life. If you can only
see how much more you can GIVE to life and also RECEIVE in life, you won't
be stuck with the voice in your head.

Do the Landmark Forum. Don't see it as a thing. See it as a key to unlock
possibilities to your highest potential. We all need education to learn, to
have a skill. Take it as a skill you want to have in order to know and love
who you truly are.

With love,
Mable

*YawNn* *sTrecTch* *mOAn*

It's a little dusty rusty in here isn't it?

Nobody's probably here much.

But you know... it's funny... when something is made so available to you the less it seems appealing.

Like for example, if you had tubs of chocolate fudge ice cream lying all around you waiting to be picked up, it'll remain... waiting to be picked up. Why? Simply because it doesn't become a novelty anymore. To me, it might look like a miniature potted scrub.

My point is: I had the Internet, the PC, the lettuce, the tomatoes, the lots for a whole month and I simply didn't bother to blog. Why? It just didn't seem appealing. My 'why' wasn't strong enough. I had other things better to do (even though I probably didn't). I was busy (even though I might not)... the thing is... this - like every other gross human habit that I own - is unhealthy. Discipline is such a undeveloped skill, I feel like a crab with one claw too tiny.

I'll make an effort from now on.

Maybe.

If and when the time is right.

Hrm... or maybe just when I feel like it.

Change,Choice,Decision by Jim Rohn

"One of the best places to start to turn your life around is by doing whatever appears on your mental "I should" list.

Indecision is the thief of opportunity.

Every life form seems to strive to its maximum except human beings. How tall will a tree grow? As tall as it possibly can. Human beings, on the other hand, have been given the dignity of choice. You can choose to be all or you can choose to be less. Why not stretch up to the full measure of the challenge and see what all you can do?

You cannot change your destination overnight, but you can change your direction overnight.

Decision making can sometimes seem like inner civil war.

I used to say, "I sure hope things will change." Then I learned that the only way things are going to change for me is when I change.

Don't say, "If I could, I would." Say, "If I can, I will."

It doesn't matter which side of the fence you get off on sometimes. What matters most is getting off! You cannot make progress without making decisions.

We generally change ourselves for one of two reasons: inspiration or desperation.

If you don't like how things are, change it! You're not a tree."

Summer Holiday

The Chinese Mystic's Last Surprise by Osho

Laughter is eternal, life is eternal, celebration continues. Actors change but the drama continues. Waves change but the ocean continues. You laugh, you change--and somebody else laughs--but laughter continues. You celebrate, somebody else celebrates, but celebration continues.

Existence is continuous, it is a continuum. There is not a single moment's gap in it. No death is death, because every death opens a new door--it is a beginning. There is no end to life, there is always a new beginning, a resurrection.

If you change your sadness to celebration, then you will also be capable of changing your death into resurrection. So learn the art while there is still time.

I have heard about three Chinese mystics. Nobody knows their names now, and nobody ever knew their names. They were known only as the "Three Laughing Saints" because they never did anything else; they simply laughed.

These three people were really beautiful--laughing, and their bellies shaking. And then it would become an infection and others would start laughing. The whole marketplace would laugh. When just a few moments before, it was an ugly place where people were thinking only of money, suddenly these three mad people came and changed the quality of the whole marketplace. Now they had forgotten that they had come to purchase and sell. Nobody bothered about greed. For a few seconds a new world opened.

They moved all over China, from place to place, from village to village, just helping people to laugh. Sad people, angry people, greedy people, jealous people--they all started laughing with them. And many felt the key--you can be transformed.

Then, in one village it happened that one of the three died. Village people gathered and they said, "Now there will be trouble. Now we have to see how they laugh. Their friend has died; they must weep."

But when they came, the two were dancing, laughing and celebrating the death. The village people said, "Now this is too much. When a man is dead it is profane to laugh and dance."

They said, "The whole life we laughed with him. How can we give him the last send-off with anything else?--we have to laugh, we have to enjoy, we have to celebrate. This is the only farewell that is possible for a man who has laughed his whole life. We don't see that he is dead. How can laughter die, how can life die?"

Then the body was to be burned, and the village people said, "We will give him a bath as the ritual prescribes." But those two friends said, "No, our friend has said, 'Don't perform any ritual and don't change my clothes and don't give me a bath. You just put me as I am on the burning pyre.' So we have to follow his instructions."

And then, suddenly, there was a great happening. When the body was put on the fire, that old man had played the last trick. He had hidden many fireworks under his clothes, and suddenly there was a festival! Then the whole village started laughing. These two mad friends were dancing, then the whole village started dancing.

It was not a death, it was a new life.

Living Totally by Osho

"When Alexander the Great was coming to India, he met one strange man, Diogenes. It was a winter morning, a cool breeze was blowing, and Diogenes was lying on the riverbank, taking a sunbath, naked. He was a beautiful man--when there is a beautiful soul, a beauty arises which is not of this world.

He had nothing, not even a begging-bowl, because one day when he was going toward the river with his begging bowl to get some water to drink, he saw a dog rushing to the river. The dog jumped in the river and drank--Diogenes laughed and he said, "This dog has taught me a lesson. If he can live without a begging bowl, then why can't I?" He threw the begging-bowl, he also jumped like the dog in the river and drank. Since then he had had nothing.

Alexander had never seen such a graceful man, such utter beauty, something from the unknown.... He was in awe and he said, "Sir..." He had never said "Sir" to anybody in his life. He said, "Sir, I am immensely impressed by your being, and I would like to do something for you. Is there something that I can do for you?

Diogenes said, "Just stand to the side because you are blocking the sun--that's all. Nothing else do I need."

Alexander said, "If I have another chance to come to the earth I will ask God, instead of making me Alexander again, to make me Diogenes."

Diogenes laughed and he said, "Who is preventing you right now? You can become a Diogenes. Where are you going? For months I have seen armies moving and moving--where are you going? and for what?"

Alexander said, I am going to India to conquer the whole world."

"And then what are you going to do?" Diogenes asked.

And Alexander said, "Then I will rest."

Diogenes laughed again and he said, "You are mad--because I am resting now, and I have not conquered the world. I don't see the necessity of it. Who has told you that before resting, you have to conquer the world? And I tell you: if you don't rest now, then you never will. Something or other will always remain to be conquered... and time is fleeting. You will die in the middle of your journey--everybody dies in the middle of the journey."

And Alexander died in the middle. When he was moving back from India, he died on the way. And that day he remembered Diogenes. Only Diogenes was in his mind--he could never rest in his life, and that man rested."

The Woman on the Bus by Osho

I have heard that an old woman was traveling on a bus, and she was anxious, worried, and continuously asking what stop it was. The stranger sitting by her side said, "Relax, don't be worried. The conductor will go on announcing what stop it is, and if you are too worried I will call him here. You can tell him where you want to get off so he can keep a note of it. And you can relax!"

He called the conductor and the woman said, "Please remember, I don't want to miss my stop. I have to reach somewhere very urgently."

The conductor said, "Okay, I will make a note of it--although even without your asking I will be announcing each stop. But I will make a note of it and I will come to you particularly and tell you whenever your stop comes. But you relax, don't be so worried about it!"

She was perspiring and trembling and looked so tense. So she said, "Okay, you note it down--I have to get off at the bus terminus."

Now if it is the bus terminus, why should you worry? How can you miss it? There is no way of missing it! The moment you rest, the moment you relax, you know that existence is already going, moving, reaching towards higher peaks. And you are part of it. You need not have separate ambitions.

This is relaxation--resting, dropping all private goals, dropping the whole achieving mind, all the ego projections. And then life is a mystery. Your eyes will be full of wonder; your heart will be full of awe.

We are not to become something--we are already it. This is the whole message of all the awakened ones: that you are not to achieve something, it has already been given to you. It is God's gift. You are already where you should be, you can't be anywhere else. There is nowhere to go, nothing to achieve. Because there is nowhere to go and nothing to achieve, you can celebrate. Then there is no hurry, no worry, no anxiety, no anguish, no fear of being a failure. You can't fail. In the very nature of things it is impossible to fail, because there is no question of success at all.

A Little Dino

A little dinosaur bared her teeth at me.

She did not say, "Grr!"

Nor did she say, "Gah!"

but she smiled with her ice cream covered lips, and said sunnily, "Hullo!"

And I smiled back a shiny smile and said, "Hi!"

I asked. "How are you?"

The little dino said, fine thank you. And her other dino friends giggled.

"Why are you in a dinosaur suit?"

The little dino replied "No reason."

And I grinned, "You are amazing."

I wished I'd asked them to sing me a birthday song. It would have been so cool to have an army of little dino girls piping up a happy song on my birth day. But I was in a hurry to help the Heartbroken Fish escape.

It is/was/always will be a very happy happy day.

déjà vu

"the experience of feeling that one has witnessed or experienced a new situation previously." [en.wikipedia.org]

Have you had one of those?

You walk along a street and you're suddenly enveloped with the feeling of déjà vu. You've been there. You've done that. You've seen her. But the strange fact is, you've never.

How is it you've met that girl with the beautiful hazel eyes when you've never seen her in all your life? Or walked past that tree, post box, yellow bee-striped car, when you haven't?

What if déjà vus are second chances? What if some of us had the opportunity to re-live our lives again for a second time? You know how you say things like: "I wish I could turn back time." or "If I had the chance to do it all over again..." So what if we got what we wanted but forgot we made that wish? Would we really do things any differently?

Maybe some of us have died and God in all his wisdom decided we deserved another go. Would we be happier? Would we live life fuller? Would we cry less, love more, talk less, listen more, eat less, have more fun? What are we doing with our second chances now that we have our second chances? Would we still say, 'What if'?

Would we still say, 'Could have...', 'Should have...', 'Would have...'? Because if déjà vus were second chances, it seems to me, we need triple, quadruple takes in order to get things right-er, better, more accurately significantly happier.
Which means humankind are pretty much blardy slow learners.

Aloneless

Somedays can be a little confusing. A mix muddle of information that channels into your life and become clutter. So on days like that all you want to do is to be alone. You can call it running away. Some may call it hiding. But whatever the words, being alone can be healing. It heals the soul, coats it with comfort, blankets your mind and soothes it to rest. There are times in life we must rest. Rest from tiresome thoughts, tiresome people, tiresome activities and just be ... quiet.

We are our very own best company. I've told my friends many times that we've come in this world alone and we'll leave this world alone. There are books written, articles published, talk show hosted on the importance of alone-ness. You know it and I know it. But many don't follow it. Quiet moments should be used on reflecting and looking deep into our hearts and listen what we don't usually listen. Who better but us to listen to our hearts?

And people become often lost, listless and disconnected because they've forgotten to reconnect to their very hearts. The one thing they should listen to but don't because there are always someone out there that have a better idea what they should be doing with their lives. But really, who better than you to know? Who better to tell you to dance, when your heart feels like dancing? Who better to tell you to sing, when your heart feels the music? Who better to tell you to love, when your heart is soaring to love?

Your Self.

Give yourself the gift of your company this Christmas. Look into the window of soul and see. Look carefully and say with all honesty, are you happy? Ask you that simple three-worded question: Am I happy? And if you can respond with a sharp resounding confident Yes, then you truly are. But if you hesitate within just a breath of a second, you are... faking it.

Don't fake it darlings. Don't fall for your own lies. If you aren't happy, don't be afraid to say you're not. Because the moment you know you aren't, all that there is now, is to go up; grow up. You deserve better.

Look into your hearts this new year and every new year to be alone. To heal. To comfort. To love your self. To re-connect with your soul. Listen to what your heart tells you and follow it. Trust yourself because who better but yourself?

If anyone told you...

You couldn't do it. Ask them why.

If that anyone was to be you. Ask yourself why. Because there is no reason to why you cannot succeed in something you believe so strongly, so passionately, so vividly about.

What you imagine yourself to be. You can be.

What you think yourself to be. You will be.

What you see yourself to be. You shall be.

You must not, should not, will not give the meaning to the phrase 'I can't'. If you do, you are merely acting as your own executioner.

"You were born to win, but to be a winner you must plan to win, prepare to win, and expect to win." – Zig Ziglar

Melbourne Underground

Brain Feed by Jim Rohn

"The major reason for setting a goal is for what it makes of you to accomplish it. What it makes of you will always be the far greater value than what you get.

When Andrew Carnegie died, they discovered a sheet of paper upon which he had written one of the major goals of his life: to spend the first half of his life accumulating money and to spend the last half of his life giving it all away. And he did!

Some people are disturbed by those tough days because all they have is the days. They haven't designed or described or defined the future.

Goals. There's no telling what you can do when you get inspired by them. There's no telling what you can do when you believe in them. And there's no telling what will happen when you act upon them.

We all need lots of powerful long-range goals to help us past the short-term obstacles.

The ultimate reason for setting goals is to entice you to become the person it takes to achieve them.

Don't set your goals too low. If you don't need much, you won't become much.

If you go to work on your goals, your goals will go to work on you. If you go to work on your plan, your plan will go to work on you. Whatever good things we build end up building us.

We all have two choices: We can make a living or we can design a life."

Footprints Cast in Stone

Every one we meet leaves some sort of impact in our lives. It can be the size of Yamagata or a sting of a bee. But either way, they always always leave an impression. I've met some people, known them for years but can't remember anything rich from that experience. I've also had the pleasure of meeting people for a few minutes and I feel like I've been hit by lighting. Some people are a waste of time and energy, some people you just can't get enough of. But however minute their own significance are, I strongly feel that we are all interconnected and placed together at one place and one time for some reason because Nothing is a Coincidence.

Some time ago or most recently, one person left a happy mark in my life. And though it was brief, it was never short of interesting. And though he was imperfectly perfect, he was gone like the spring wind. The good things in life are fleeting because it is in their transcient existence that makes it somewhat enjoyable. It's like a fast fading beauty of a flower. We treasure what little time it has with us.

Obsession

Scarcity creates obsession.

When you have something so little of e.g. good quality friends, plenty of money, love etc. you become quite obsessed with the idea of owning it.

For example, there is story of a man who have no known best friend. He recognises this. And so he realises that the only person he can rely on is his dear wife. So his love turns into a mess of obsession. He becomes so deeply obsessed with her he begins to chain her to his insecurity. Binds her to him. Slowly but surely suffocating her.

We can relate to that obsession. All of us have something precious, a crown jewel; a deeply cherished item we do not want lost. We are all at the brink of obsession because we are all controlled by two emotions: fear and greed. When we fear that we may lose something, we hang on to it. A car. A piece of stone. A person. We hold on because we feel safe having it. We hang on to it as though it is our dear life. But all fear is, it is only mental.

Coming back to my story. The-man-with-his-deep-love-for-his-wife-because-he-has-no-one-else-in-the-world guards his wife so jealously, that she becomes to fade like a flower without sunshine. As much as she loves him, she cannot be with him. It is like a swim between yin and yang. She fights, at first, for her freedom. For her identity. But her loyalty to this man she has sworn to be with for better or for worst, eats into her heart and produces - guilt. So she ebbs away. And one day surely when she dies, he will die too. She from a broken heart and he from a broken mind.

Everyone has an obsession stemmed from scarcity.


Greed: "I want a red convertible so I can look cool every day"

Brainfark

Stimulating discussions about life has always left me engrossed. Sometimes exhausted. Mostly boggled. But nevertheless, extremely exhilirated. Socrates sat in a busy market contemplating, debating, asking the people of Roma question that left their minds buzzing and more often than not, their tongues too. Zen masters toy with their apprentices' minds: Throwing riddles and rewarding them with enlightenment, so full of promise but so laced with hope, the mind just burst into fumes, smoking in delusion, basically leaving those smart-thinking-monkeys-thinking-smart - brainfarked.

I enjoy a good healthy thought-provoking conversation with an individual any time. Pity they come so rare. I can count with my chubby ugly toes how few there are that I know of but howeversofew, that also means that they're precious.

You can never contain one of those individuals in one place. Their eyes gives out a restless glint that you so seldom find - that fire that burns a passion to live a life that is so full, that it inspires you. No matter how much I explain it here, there or every where, no one can or will understand. But maybe you do.

Look into the eyes of a child. Your child. And you will see it.


Alice in the Looking Glass